Personal Feelings

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing And I don't feel the same
So little time Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing And I don't feel the same

Personal feelings at minute........

A SomeBody is Everyones Nobody

Think about the title of this for a minute and think about what all thoughts that end up floating about in your head. and i bet u it int wats in mine....



i believe that innovative Christains of this time see stuff before other and our proactive in thier walk with the Lord... n i believe that there our somebody that have Gods heart are ignore on face values.... wat they say, behave or do.



this maybe b personal for some but i dont really care, i feel sumtimes lik my voice box has been cut away from me, my vision is bring people to God and to show them a glimpse His love to people who need it the most like. Sumtimes i wish a had a title or name that people looked up to n respected, I wish i was a sumbody, pastor,preacher. instead i feel alone and silenced b the people of power



I think God has a purpose for every1 life im wonderin if mine ended rite nw wud the things i see tht need to happen now will probably b forfilled b some1 of a higher status within my own society in six months time but then we r reacting n not proacting.... but their voice will b heard. Gods plan wud go on if i wasnt here so i wonderin y i was choose to live this life. to rap this up in the words freddy mercury 'sumtime i wish had never bin born at all' may be then God wud ave gt the best from his people he had at his disposal

Basically i had this in drafts n i thought nw was time to share it

Desire to Know Love and Serve God

I wonder how many of think of God wen we first wake up? i wonder if God is really playing the major role in our lives? and i wonder deep down inside your hearts if we would be willing to die for him?or even worse live for him?

i know it has bin a long time since i have last did 1 of these blogs but i have bin wrestling with this topic for a while... it could be the fact that there is so many peope that i can see doing stuff which is so different to Gods word and so much like the world- though im not saying im prefect here im far from that place, it just simply made me think about these questions.

in this wrld we see so much trouble and proverty and how many of us actually do something about it? do we live to feed the hungry or even stand beside the broken people of this world? do we love the sinner and hate the sin or just take the easy option and judge both?

I think we all forgotten the meaning of Christainity... I think we need to get back to our roots of our very own religion- the walk of Jesus. I know what the Answers would be if I was able to ask Jesus... the next question is what would your answers be?

Will the Real Slim Shady please stand up..... We are goin to have a problem here!!!

hello all again

this is the first time in a we while that i have wanted to do a blog, and iwant u to no that i am in the mood for God again... the onli downside is that im in malta and it isnt LURGAN OR HOME.

i was just reading a book by Rob Bell which has made me think about things... the book was called velvet elvis... this has gave me a different angle to look at Christianity and God, stuff that i think is relevent in todays society... we need to look outside of the box that we find ourselves in and so start choosing to act as Jesus has intended us to in order to reshape the planet for Gods return to the earth not us just looking forward to goin somewere else.... Us a s Christians i believe we can bring climpses of Heaven to earth.

In my life i have found what the problem was with me and God... the problem was ME not God... I was trying to be this person who was the centre of attention, the main man, the top dog. i wanted to create a Superman type image of myself. And had to do somefing that was hard i had to humble myself before God and say that i was wrong..

I have learnt now from wat i have done wrong and all i wnt to do is get back home to were im meant to be and to start working and rebuilding the planet as part of a Team in Gods name, cause that is were we find our strength...

++++Grievo ++++

Fustrating Times

Hello again due the pressure applied to me by Dave McMullen i have decided to do another blog in order to let every1 know how i feel then move on...

In my life atm i feel that there is problems between me and God... It had felt as if He had ran away from me..... but I new this cudnt possibly be the case and my faith wudnt let me continue these thoughts .... so i broke them down and have came up with this...it feels as if God has taken a step back away from me in order for me to learn and experience something that God maybe isnt happy seein me experience but God no's it will make me stronger and a better person through experiencing it.

i am also annoyed at the labels being thrown around this world- people assume that if something is Christian it has to be gd. Just because music is Christian doesnt make it gd music just the same as some things that christians say arent True.... I have mention this before but the people who do the most damage to the Christian Faith are the Christians themselves...

Another things that are annoyin me are the Christian that r Focus on doin and acting lik Jesus are the same ppl who find it easy to find a comfort zones and stay ther instead of continuing to make new breakthrough in ther life through there Faith - these ppl are gr8 ppl for God but cud be awesome...

Im in Matla atm i will post more stuff y im ere but i wsh home so much already n 3 weeks is extremely long timke plz pray while im away

xxxGrievo xxxx

Unwilling!!!

if im being open and honest i havent reali felt lik writing on this for a while... im stil nt reali sure if i shud!!

To be honest i thought i was goin good lik, learnin loads for God n now i have the chance to put into practice wat i had bin learnin.. this is soo excitin just so glad that im out again lik. but there is this part of me that think that God can do far better than me lik... he is the King of Kings - Alpha and omega - why does he want me lik of all people - a person hu is gd for nothin lik! Many people hu no me may say this aint true but that is how i feel...

But a good friend of mine told me a couple of days ago... that God is using us and if we choose not to respond we will ave the blood of the Lost souls on our hands... and i believe this is true

i was lookin thru my bible then in Exodus chapter 3 n to b honest i feel abit lik moses in this story but i feel that God message to Moses and to me the day is exactly the same.... I can use u to do great things if u only let me n to be honest im to scared of Gods judgement not to do wat he says so im wrestling wif God at the min but God keeps sayin is all i need is ur willingness to go n i will use u!!

For i no God uses the poor to teach the rich and the needy to teach the wise but im nt that sure that i am best suited to the task in hand... its onli human im sure but God is sayin lik the more u doubt the more i want u! im nt so sure wat this means and im sure this maybe aint been as benfical a blog as the others but thats how i feel atm so i just thought i wud share it.xxxGrievo-+- xxx

Interesting Reading

A few statement of what i have read in the last while, i pray that God will use them to touch your heart as he has touched mine with theses statements.

"I am convinced of this. There is more Grace in God than Sin in Us"(Pete Greig, The Vision and The Vow)

Another is from a Former Chaplain to the U.S Senate - Richard Halverson

"Christianity began in Galilee

As a fellowship of men and women

centered on Jesus Christ.

It went to Greece and became a philosophy.

It went to Rome and became an Institution.

It went to Europe and became a Culture.

It came to America and became an enterprise.

We NEED to get back to our Roots"

I believe that this is controversial but true, ad i feel God calling us as Christians back to the very things on which are Faith i based on... JESUS CHRIST.

Also Isaiah 55 v 8-9 tells us

Isa 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
Isa 55:9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

this is just somethings i have been think about over the last while, lets just praise God

Imtimacy and Learning

Today it was Sunday, the day of the week that i have usually dreaded for two or three months now... it was the day of the week that church is on, now dont get me wrong i love church life and the people but there is times were i feel like i just want to be a child of God and not a methodist or sumthing like that. But over the last couple of days during and since the operation on my throat, i have felt God presence time again and i have learnt to be comfortable in presence- i feel like a child wrapped up warm in my Fathers arms knowin that is no way that He will drop me. God presence with me has been invaluable and has taught me alot.. i fink that we all need to realise that sometimes we need to humble ourselves as Christian and followers of God to learn more about him and study for Him ( this is my view) cause God needs to change me before He can change people through me, He is all i have and all i need... the imtimacy with my ABBA Father tonigth was so amazing, it was like i had a church service and the God was the pastor and i was the servant, it challenged me in part of my life that are unknown to most people who no me but hopefully people will see a difference in my out look on God

God Bless Grievo xxx_+_xxx

Pain

this is definately the mot difficult part of my recovery so far, i woke up this morning and a cudnt hardly breathe the pain was unbearable... so much so hat it woke me from my sleep, and the people who no meunderstand that is nt an easy thing to do! my throat is goin to get worse before it gets better i know this cause the Dr's and the Nurses both said it would, but unquestionably the pain that is causing me the most distress is the fact that i am no longer totally depenant on my self!! i just wanna go out and continue my life but i feel as if im being held back, my mind wonders alot and when im board it tends to work on my weakness, this isn't good cause i start to doubt myself, my family and the people who are close to me, my friends, this is feelings the day hopefully i will b feeling a little bit more up beat the moro, we will see.. big fanxs again to all the people who our praying for me and continually visiting me, i appreciate it alot more then i probably let on at the time, n i no im nt much crack but i will b soon i hope again, i aslo wanna say the i appreciate the fact that every1 cares for me so much n even if the cant get to see me because of other plans n all then to no they thinking of me is a huge help.... Grievo xxx_+_xxx

the mood the day

Boredom has sat in, and wen i have no company my mind starts to play tricks on me. lyin here over these next couple of weeks will hard i fink cos my personality isnt suited to sittin about all day doin nothin.. the onli benifit is th time i can spend wif my father of heaven and the King of Kings.. i am really lookin forward to that over the next wee while.. i will try and keep ppl up to d8 wif wat im learnin during this time in the house... i wud just like to say a special fanxs to big bro and mentor Dave Mull and wee bros pete, jonny and kris aswell as my darlin wee sis Jayne for comin to visit me last nyt love u alll Grievo xxx+xxx

Tonsils Removed

this is just to let every1 no that i have had my operation to get my tonsils out ... and the dr z everyfing is accordin to plan atm... this is just basically to say thanks for all ur prayers and worries as Gods hand rested on my head in hospital all though wednesday and he even gave me a chance to witness for him so let just praise Him for That... love u all Grievo

All - Ireland Champions

Armagh College Volleyball team were recently crown All - Ireland Champions to go with their N.I School League and Schools Cup success. Congrats to all the lads x

Heya

Hey this is my First blog,

So welcome to the blog, this weekend got off to a hard start.. it was tough.. although you could really feel God n his presence in Lurgan. The week was a challenge, although the weekend brought a new emotion.. the chance to pray for the people of the clubbin scene. it was a gd nyt with the group of friends at the banville in banbrigde