Pain

this is definately the mot difficult part of my recovery so far, i woke up this morning and a cudnt hardly breathe the pain was unbearable... so much so hat it woke me from my sleep, and the people who no meunderstand that is nt an easy thing to do! my throat is goin to get worse before it gets better i know this cause the Dr's and the Nurses both said it would, but unquestionably the pain that is causing me the most distress is the fact that i am no longer totally depenant on my self!! i just wanna go out and continue my life but i feel as if im being held back, my mind wonders alot and when im board it tends to work on my weakness, this isn't good cause i start to doubt myself, my family and the people who are close to me, my friends, this is feelings the day hopefully i will b feeling a little bit more up beat the moro, we will see.. big fanxs again to all the people who our praying for me and continually visiting me, i appreciate it alot more then i probably let on at the time, n i no im nt much crack but i will b soon i hope again, i aslo wanna say the i appreciate the fact that every1 cares for me so much n even if the cant get to see me because of other plans n all then to no they thinking of me is a huge help.... Grievo xxx_+_xxx