Monday, 21 May 2007

Unwilling!!!

if im being open and honest i havent reali felt lik writing on this for a while... im stil nt reali sure if i shud!!

To be honest i thought i was goin good lik, learnin loads for God n now i have the chance to put into practice wat i had bin learnin.. this is soo excitin just so glad that im out again lik. but there is this part of me that think that God can do far better than me lik... he is the King of Kings - Alpha and omega - why does he want me lik of all people - a person hu is gd for nothin lik! Many people hu no me may say this aint true but that is how i feel...

But a good friend of mine told me a couple of days ago... that God is using us and if we choose not to respond we will ave the blood of the Lost souls on our hands... and i believe this is true

i was lookin thru my bible then in Exodus chapter 3 n to b honest i feel abit lik moses in this story but i feel that God message to Moses and to me the day is exactly the same.... I can use u to do great things if u only let me n to be honest im to scared of Gods judgement not to do wat he says so im wrestling wif God at the min but God keeps sayin is all i need is ur willingness to go n i will use u!!

For i no God uses the poor to teach the rich and the needy to teach the wise but im nt that sure that i am best suited to the task in hand... its onli human im sure but God is sayin lik the more u doubt the more i want u! im nt so sure wat this means and im sure this maybe aint been as benfical a blog as the others but thats how i feel atm so i just thought i wud share it.xxxGrievo-+- xxx

2 comments:

roast honey said...

want a reason to keep going for God? Because you love him and reverantly fear him! Not because of guilt-God can save the lost without ur help-but isn't it more of a privelege to let him use u to do it? Likin' the blog but finding it hard (i must be really old) to read ur short hand text style writing!By the way we all have those feelings u have had.

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Write us another blog before you go to Malta bro! Pleeeaassee! Did you win the footie tonight. I left at 6-2 so u better have! mwaw